bah, got tired of looking at my old one -,-
just doin the usual stuff, trying to get cosplays ready, working, trying to get my story together, trying not to go all out crazy from thinking waaaay to much
those who read this actually talk to me so the only real reason for journals is for the random quiz riiight?
i was bored, neeeh >b

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...
7. With the final question listen to your heart

Opening Credits: "Life" Yui Horie

Waking Up: "624 Part1" fat jon

First Day At School: "Summer Love" Skoop On Somebody

Falling In Love: "River Of Crystals" Kenji Kawai

Fight Song: "The Blues" Switchfoot

Breaking Up: "My Will" dream (( o...m...g... ))

Prom: "Unreachable" Ashlee Simpson

Life's OK: "Viva Rock ~Japanese Side~" - ORANGE RANGE

Mental Breakdown: "I'm Dying" VAST

Driving: "Bodies" Drowning Pool (( XDD ))

Flashback: "All For Love" Bryan Adams, Rod Stewart, Sting

Getting Back Together: "Duvet ( Cyberia Mix By: DJ Wase )" Boa

Wedding: "Fall Away" The Fray

Birth of Child: "Unwritten" Natasha Beddingfield

Final Battle: "How Soon Is Now" Love Spit Love

Death Scene: "Eternal" Evanesence

Funeral Scene: "Kairi II" Yoko Shimomura

Ending Credits: "One By One" Enya (( wow, i actually had an ending to Dark&Light to this song ( back when i was still in the 'testing ideas' part ) -,-000 ))

What Genre Is Your Film: Drama/Sentimental/Comedy

THE CHARACTER QUIZ!! Your OC (made-up) Character

>>>BASICS

>>1)What's your character's name? Ruka Kekanna
>>2)How old is he/she? in the newest storyline 23 ( though it changes very often )
>>3)Is your OC a boy or girl? girl
>>4)What's his/her race? Elemental

>>>APPEARANCE
>>1)If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get? she's stick out like a sore thumb, at least for awhile until she figures out where she's at and how to blend it.....she might fit in at a Anime Convention just fine though XD
>>2)Is your character considered normal in his/her own world? veeeeeery far from
>>3)What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)? her snow white hair and her eyes

>>> PERSONALITY
>>1)Temper? before she didn't have one, now you would be lucky to make it out alive if you pissed her off
>>2)Does your character ever get depressed? the better question is "is your character ever happy?....ever??"
>>3)Leader or Follower? doesn't want to lead and hates to follow
>>4)What is the main aspect of his/her personality? how hurt she's become that it has changed her into a totally different person

>>>HISTORY
>>1) Did your OC have a family of any sort? kinda, in the story she doesn't know who her real parents are and the people that rased her are all dead now
>>2) Is your character out on his/her own? If so, why? yes, she hates to be around other people. though she always seems to get stuck with a little group every now and then. ( she travels allot )
>>3)Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events? YEEES
>>4)What was probably the best time in his/her life so far? the time between 16-18
>>1) Single? yes, doesn't trust anyone enough to every let them get anywhere near that close to her
>>2) Had your OC developed any romantic relationships? yes, one very serious one that ended when she was 18
>>3) Virgin? no
>>4) Does your character like flirting? nope, will actually walk away from a guy who is trying to flirt with her.

>>>SYMBOLISM
>>1) What animal would you associate your OC with? a white wolf
2) Musical Instrument? a violin
3) Element? light
4)Planet? born on Elemental Water planet, but if i had to pick one that would be for her i would say it would be Niu ( meaning behind this will come later...bwahahaha )
1) Do you draw your character? just about everytime i draw
>>2) Do you write about him/her? yes, though most of it is in my head >b
>>3) Do you use him/her in any rpgs? for the longest time no, but more resently i have
>>4)What other ways have you appreciated your OC? she can be me if i let myself become so distant from the world. allot of what she's gone through has happened to me, no matter what version of her i draw/rp/make stories on, she'll always be a part of me.

>>>RANDOMIZE!
>>1) Is your character wanted for anything? heh heh, quite a few things
>>2) What are three weaknesses in him/her? very untrusting of everyone, shots first asks questions later, her mouth will get her into trouble
>>3) Strengths? very untrusting of people ( if your warry of someone your not gonna leap into some stupid crap ), very kind hearted though she doesn't like to show it, can change
>>4) Does your OC drink or smoke (etc.)? yes, every second of every day....she's not a very good role model >b
>>5) What's one quirk about him/her? doesn't talk to anyone, doesn't let any of her pent up emotions out
>>6) Does your character have any phobias? at times hights, people getting to close
>>7) What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage? seeing Hunter again
>>8) Does your OC like chickens? yes, though Sakura and Luna look at her like she's crazy when she mentions a food tastes like chicken

>>>>>THE FINAL QUESTION
What would you consider your relationship with your character to be like? silent understanding friendship, if she where real i don't think we'd talk much...just enjoy each other company while playing a game or something

-Ruka

Song of the Moment
Night lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
but steady there now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
sleep has left me alone
to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong
it's all I can do to hang on
to keep me from falling
into old familiar shoes

how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you

how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

everything changes
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know

how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

"Stupid" By: Sarah McLachlan

Sarah McLachlan "Stupid" Music Video YouTube

I’m a daydreamer…
The daydreamers are silly persons… We create our own illusions, we imagine perfect worlds, we run after our own dreams… we struggle for our ideals. We always do all the efforts, we always spend all our energy to reach our ideals, to follows our illusions…
But the reality doesn’t follow our rules… The reality is always worst than our dreams… It’s grey, trivial and banal… Our fragile dreams are ephemeral and every times they die out, our heart feels a terrible pain... We are like the moths that try to reach the light… we only get hurts.
We are hopeless…
By Galhad
Myspace

- J-Pop / Anime
- Tv Mind of Mencia, Samurai 7 ( Anime ) / Movie hmmm.....i haven't watched any movies much lately
- Kingdom Hearts II ( 102 hours already X3 ), Sonic Plus Mega Collection

for cryin out loud, the only person who tags me like 5 times a week is you Alex! do you do that just so i will update my journal or somethin?! bah who i'm kiddin, it gives me a reason XD

Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours.

1. it's like a family habit to call out something weird we heard, like right after the tv SCREAMS out "IT'S ALL OVER!!" mom said once "is the game over yet?", we just can't pass that up. ONE of us has to say something and more than likely it will be me.

2. i don't really eat cereal for breakfast ( i'm not up in the morning usually anyway >b ), i prefer to eat it for dinner.

3. i love moving my stuff around in my room, the longest i've ever kept my room the same in a think about 4-5ish months. every birthday when my friends come over they have to re-explore my room just to find out where i put my stuff

4. i leave allot things halfway finished most of the time ( just like this, i left off on 4 till the next DAY ) and allot of my "projects" end up taking a few years just for me to get around to finishing it cuz i'll ether lose it or just have another idea pop in my head ( the last thing i really left undone where my clothes, i washed them all and stopped putting them away after the first load. i had like a mountian of clothes on my bed for a few months which i didn't put away till like last week )

5. i mix coke with fanta ( or just orange soda ) and if i can some lemon juice to make mazo mix ( or spelled something like that ) which is a drink iused to have allot the time in Germany.

6. i crack my knuckles ALL THE TIME, i'll crank my fingerknuckles about 3 times within 5 mins if i keep thinking about them. i have to crack my back so i can actually get comfey when i lay down, and cracking my neck helps with my headaches ( but if i do it wronge it makes it woooorse ) i can even get odd looks from my family sometimes by just how loud i pop them ( i love making kids freak out from me crackin my neck keekee )

ug, i have no one to tag. sponge it i ain't taggin anyone....no point.

well anywho i'm off ( mom has work planned >b ) ooo, might get a tattoo on Monday with Lacy ( just hope i have enough money for whatever i waht >,> <,< )
umblagumda~

-Ruka

Song of the Moment
C'est le malaise du moment
L'épidémie qui s'étend
La fete est finie on descend
Les pensées qui glacent la raison
It's the disease of the age,
An epidemic that spreads,
The party is over and we descend,
The thoughts that freeze the mind.

Paupières baissées, visage gris
Surgissent les fantomes de notre lit
On ouvre le loquet de la grille
Du taudit qu'on appelle maison
Lowered eyes and gray faces,
The ghosts of our past awaken;
We open the latch on the gate
Of the slum that we call home.

Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me
Protect me

Protège-moi, protège-moi [x4]
Protect me protect me [x4]

Sommes nous les jouets du destin
Souviens toi des moments divins
Planants, éclatés au matin
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls
Are we the playthings of fate
Remember those divine moments
We'd laugh and party until dawn**
And now we are all alone.

Perdus les reves de s'aimer
Les temps où on avait rien fait
Il nous reste toute une vie pour pleurer
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls
Dreams of happiness lost,
The time we have done nothing (Dreams of innocence gone)
We're left with a lifetime to cry,
And now we are all alone.

Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me
Protect me

Protect me from what I want (Protège-moi, protège-moi) Protect me protect me
Protect me from what I want (Protège-moi, protège-moi) Protect me protect me
Protect me from what I want (Protège-moi, protège-moi) Protect me protect me
Protect me
Protect me

Protège-moi, protège-moi [x2]
Protect me protect me [x2]

Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me
Protect me
[x3]
"Protège Moi" By: Placebo

Fullmetal Alchemist Protège Moi AMV

I’m a daydreamer…
The daydreamers are silly persons… We create our own illusions, we imagine perfect worlds, we run after our own dreams… we struggle for our ideals. We always do all the efforts, we always spend all our energy to reach our ideals, to follows our illusions…
But the reality doesn’t follow our rules… The reality is always worst than our dreams… It’s grey, trivial and banal… Our fragile dreams are ephemeral and every times they die out, our heart feels a terrible pain... We are like the moths that try to reach the light… we only get hurts.
We are hopeless…
By Galhad
Myspace

- J-Pop / Anime
- Tv Avatar: The Last Airbender, Kyle XY / Movie Cars, Pirates of the Caribbean II

getting really tired of looking at the old journal. BAH!
i can't believe i'm actually going to Otakon 06, it's said to be the biggest anime convention in the US and i'm sure there'll be aBUNCH more people than at Animazement 06 ( poor meeee ) but i'm sure i'll have fun....if i can actually take the camera >,> i went out to put the dog away and it just had to start rainning on me RIGHT THEN....water had desided to turn agenst me i swear. i started drinking two cups of coffee each Sunday rather than just one..mmm....coooffeeeee. mom says i'm crasy XD maybe i'm just hyped up on JAVA JAVA JAVA JAVA JAVA......nope can't be. movin on. the temp around here is actin funny, i was all hot from just ridein' around to food lion then back home, and now i'll freezing *shakes fist at the fan* i could always just turn it down...but it's all the way over there, plus i'd just have to turn it up again when i get hot! just gotta live with being cold for awhile i guess >b *looks over at the candles*.....fiiiiiireeeeeeee.....83
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Today on the news the house by the dump on Docs Rd as went up in flames for an unknown reason today, experts say the last words right before the whole house went ablaze was "FIIIIIRRREEEEEEEEEEEEE!! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!"
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IT WASN'T ME I SWEAR!! you can't prove anything >,> <,<
i just hope it doesn't set my Vincent figure on fire, that would be a funny sight ( since i'm not the one who bought it ) but then again i like him too much to burn him out of vengence. i wonder what i should get Luna, what do you want?! why must everyone be older then meeeee >b it isn't my fault i was born in Sep!
keekeekee, i love my big purple wanna be sheets on my windows mwahahahaha! i can be all sneaky and look out the window at who's commin in and no one even knows i'm there X3 and Sakura asks how i know she's commin up to the house i should try and hide my exactooooo knife again, i started cutting random contruction paper yeserday. it was black, so just pretend it's Hunter >b it works in my mind. ever have the best thoughts right before you fall asleep, thinking of just getting up and typing but as soon as you get out of bed your mind goes blank. you know what we all need....the laptop bed series! you know you want one, yes you do. forget sitting up to type! just lay there with the lights off and go at it! or even better, have something hook up around her head and just think and BAME it types away for you! now that would be kool. also still want one of the angels from Angelic Layer, and a Chobit would be nice ( male please! maybe a female if they could make it look like one of my characters, that would be pretty kool )
blah blah blah. blah blah blah blah blah, blah blah! blllah blah blah blurg blah blah.
have you noticed that i'm rambling? really? gold star for you. if your totally lost i don't care, if you post that your totally lost i shall ignore you mwahahahaha! ( just kidding on the ignoreing part, i don't know what i'll do....i have a black hole under my bed with Gundams and other random stuff in there and i'm not afriad to use it!! )

-Ruka

Song of the Moment
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on the bedroom floor
They found him face down on his bedroom floor

There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know

Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?

I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...

"How Do You Get That Lonely" By: Blaine Larsen

I’m a daydreamer…
The daydreamers are silly persons… We create our own illusions, we imagine perfect worlds, we run after our own dreams… we struggle for our ideals. We always do all the efforts, we always spend all our energy to reach our ideals, to follows our illusions…
But the reality doesn’t follow our rules… The reality is always worst than our dreams… It’s grey, trivial and banal… Our fragile dreams are ephemeral and every times they die out, our heart feels a terrible pain... We are like the moths that try to reach the light… we only get hurts.
We are hopeless…
By Galhad
Myspace

- J-Pop / Anime
- Tv Mostly cartoons, a law and order at times / Movie Joshua, ...omigosh i forgot the name of that other movie i watched 0-o

i'm in Texas at the moment >b we went and saw the Alamo yesterday, somehow i was the only one to really get anything out of it -_-000 after that we went to this zoo kind of thing where you drive around the place where you can see allot of different animals ( everyone: well we get that part when you said zoo type thing ), and some even come right up to the car for you to feed them, which was pretty kool but that's really all the older two talked about -_-0000 ( we only took the older two since Gleen didn't want to see the Alamo again, he stayed home and watched the younger two ). uuug being sick and traveling is't kool....no, not kool at all *shakes fist* it's a little boring here, since today we're not donig anything at all. but i like it...in a way ( weird ), i should be going home in about a week, we still haven't set a real date for sure....as soon as i get home a bunch of our dogs just might have puppies ( about 8 of them i believe D8 ) and i still have to get Eds costume done for Animazement, which i might go alone to but that's kinda ok...bah. oh yea, and still get my art together, i haven't really had any time to sit down and draw something good. since i actually have time on a computer thought i'd give an update. see ya around.

-Ruka

Song of the Moment
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you

" Because of You" By: Kelly Clarkson

Kelly Clarkson "Because of You" music video on Youtube.com

I’m a daydreamer…
The daydreamers are silly persons… We create our own illusions, we imagine perfect worlds, we run after our own dreams… we struggle for our ideals. We always do all the efforts, we always spend all our energy to reach our ideals, to follows our illusions…
But the reality doesn’t follow our rules… The reality is always worst than our dreams… It’s grey, trivial and banal… Our fragile dreams are ephemeral and every times they die out, our heart feels a terrible pain... We are like the moths that try to reach the light… we only get hurts.
We are hopeless…
By Galhad
Myspace

- J-Pop / Anime
- Tv Family Guy, Futurama / Movie I haven't been watching any movies lately >b

I got tagged with this by and i can't put it off any longer >b


Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about your self" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 (or as many as you know XD ) people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours.


1. I rather sleep all day then be up at dawn and do nothing for the whole day, it's like sleeping while awake but much more boreing -.- and at times when i'm haveing a deep deep dream it takes aLLOT to wake me up.

2. I'm much more honest with people, if someone i don't even know asked me something a bit personal i would answer them truthfully. i see no point it lieing about myself, even more to someone i don't even know, it's not worth it.

3. Bees scare me....like crasy scare me *hears a buzzing noise and hides under bed....only to be a fly*

4. I talk out loud when typing on my aim/msn/yahoo messenger aaaallllll the time.

5. I have more J-pop/Anime music on my computer than english, even though i really don't know what their saying unless i look it up >< also proving that i listen more to the music in the background than the words.

6. I love swimming, but hate wearing swimsuites and really really hate summer ( and spring, the only thing i really like about spring is all the rain ) if swimming in winter wasn't so well, cold, i would do that rather than swim in the summer where there are more people around.

i'll tag people but i'm not gonna go around telling them "YOU MUST DO THIS MWAHAHAHAHA!!" if you don't want to do it you don't have to >b
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i leave in...*looks* 3 days, and i'll be gone until around May 1st. time to start cramping all of my art and costumes together >b

-Ruka

Song of the Moment
tameiki majiri no mainichi kotoba mo de nai
utsumuki kagen ashita no ima wo kangaeteru n da

dare ni mo shiranetaku wa nai sonna himitsu ga
boku ni aru nara sekai ga mawaru supiido kawaru ka na

kore to itte torie ga nakutatte (kokoro no naka)
totemo heiwa sore ga suteki sa

bokura ga ikiru michi furikaereba hora ne takusan no
shiawase ga yondeiru yorokobi afure egao koboresou

boku no kokoro naka ni iru tenshi ga utau
「kimi no jinsei, kimi ni nani wo kitai shiteru no ka na?」

kata no chikara wo hora nuite ippo fumi daseba
kocchi no mono sa kitto ii koto aru ni chigai nai

aisareru tame no doryouku nante sa (iranai yo)
aru ga mama ga suteki na no desu

bokura ga ikiru michi furikaereba hora ne takusan no
shiawase ga yonde iru yorokobi afure egao koboreta yo
" Suteki na Shiawase " By: The Stand Up ( first ending for Kyou Kara Maou! )

I’m a daydreamer…
The daydreamers are silly persons… We create our own illusions, we imagine perfect worlds, we run after our own dreams… we struggle for our ideals. We always do all the efforts, we always spend all our energy to reach our ideals, to follows our illusions…
But the reality doesn’t follow our rules… The reality is always worst than our dreams… It’s grey, trivial and banal… Our fragile dreams are ephemeral and every times they die out, our heart feels a terrible pain... We are like the moths that try to reach the light… we only get hurts.
We are hopeless…
By Galhad
Myspace